“Create in me a clean heart o God and renew a steadfast spirit in me. Do not cast me away from your presence and do not take away your Holy Spirit from me.” Psalm 51:10

Will God ever take back the Holy Spirit just like the Old Testament days when people were just filled for a moment? If that’s the case, then I should be praying David’s prayer too perhaps everyday.

It’s the 3rd day since I came back from my US trip and here I am again running around like a headless chicken swamped with work left and right. I guess being busy is my “thorn on the side.” Busy to the point that I can’t get anything done. Not just that…

– My quiet time is a mess and I’ve not been making The Lord a priority as I should be.

– my task list slowly moves. Mostly partially completed tasks.

– I’ve not implemented the time management plan I’ve created and

– I’ve not been the better dad I promised God I would be.

I guess we all have our struggles…. I don’t want to be busy but work just comes to me and I have problems saying no. So today… As I prayed I refrained from giving God all my personal requests. You know the desires of my heart Lord.

“Lord renew a steadfast spirit in me…” Before I read this psalm I already prayed for God to just take Control of me…. Take away my will power because the “me” inside struggles too much. I long to serve God 24/7 but the “me” is concerned too much about worldly things. This line just struck me…. I need a renewal of the spirit if possible every minute.

The psalm closes with “you do not desire sacrifice or else I would give it. You do not desire in burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart.”

Truth of the matter is, Is there anything I can offer The Lord that did not originally come from hi – Money, Food even buildings…. The Lord can create a mountain of these…. But yes Lord, I come to you broken hearted. Knowing I fail you everyday, knowing I do not live to your expectation and it reminds me how much I need you. I am frustrated!

And yes, please do not cast me away…. Be patient with me.